Thomas isn’t a popular disciple.
If we were to rank our favorite disciples in a way similar to how we rank our favorite presidents or foods, Thomas would likely be somewhere near the bottom. We’d at least rank him above Judas among the original disciples.
We know little about Thomas, but what we do know of him has earned him the moniker of “Doubting” Thomas. The nickname has come about because of a scene in John 20. In a resurrection scene, Thomas questions the other disciples when they report that Jesus is resurrected. Thomas was with them when they saw Jesus and so, John writes, he has doubts. It wasn’t until he saw Jesus, eight days later, that Thomas believed.
I don’t entirely buy the fact that simply because Thomas doubted is the reason he has become a less-than-favorite disciple. Truthfully, I think it is because Thomas is more like us than we care to admit.
We each struggle with things about our faith and life in general. There are aspects of Scripture where we struggle to see God’s love or elements of Jesus’ teaching that seem hard for us to grasp. If we were being completely honest there are moments when we doubt God’s love for us or if God is there.
The question is what do we do when we have moments of doubt?
Many of us have been told, and unfortunately I might add, that we shouldn’t doubt. That we should just ignore them, accept things as they are and move on. This is unhealthy and damaging to our faith in Christ. If we suppress our doubt for too long they become hindrances and obstacles to true faith in Christ. We end up carrying a guilt that can prevent us from embracing a relationship with God.
The call for each of us is to embrace our doubts. I think this is the story of Thomas. Here is someone who was willing to embrace his struggles and the difficulties he had with his faith. He is not someone who hid from his doubts or put on a facade to claim that he never doubted. Thomas knew his struggles, admitted them, and wrestled with them. In doing so, Thomas gives us a path to follow in working through our moments of doubts.
Thomas knew his struggles and admitted them with his fellow disciples. He knew what his weaknesses were and shared them with those whom he trusted and shared relationship with. We should never feel like we are alone when we have moments of doubts. In those moments, we should seek out the friends who will be willing to listen to us and help us through these moments.
We also must be willing to wrestle with them. This is what Thomas did in going back with the disciples to the Upper Room. He could have easily walked away, but yet he approached his doubts. He gave the doubts over to God and allowed God to show him a deeper reality. We can wrestle with our doubts by embracing them and seeking out God in the midst of the doubts. This can be through prayer, pouring through Scripture, seeking commentaries, or talking with a pastor.
Embracing our doubts can be a scary prospect. Often times, we feel like we are alone in our doubts. The truth of the resurrection is that we are never alone, especially when we have moments of doubt. God’s love never abandons us.
The hope in wrestling with our doubts is that we experience what Thomas experienced. He saw a greater reality. He met the resurrected Lord. As we work through our doubts, the hope is that, through the Holy Spirit, we will experience a greater reality and greater truth of God’s love.
Our times of doubt then can be great opportunities of spiritual growth. So, yes … it is OK to be a “Doubting Thomas,” if we are willing to embrace our doubts and allow God to show us something deeper about faith.
2 thoughts on “Is it OK to be a Doubting Thomas?”
Yes totally agree. Actually I think there is two types of doubt, a good and a bad type. The good type being similar to what your saying, admitting your doubts but be willing to question and wrestle with them; it’s great as your mind grows and changes positively, bringing you closer to God. Whereas the bad type is probably the cynical doubt where you leave it there and turn away from God… I think.
I think you are right. This post is inspired by a talk I gave this afternoon to our community’s senior’s group. During that talk, I mentioned how the worst thing we could ever do is completely turn our back on God. We think God is not big enough to handle our fears and doubts. In reality, we are often not comfortable enough to engage and be open with ourselves about what we believe and how God is at work in our lives.